As I sit back and reflect on the last 10 years of my life today, I realize how much I have changed. I know that I am not yet the person I want to be (we all have our flaws). But I am slowly getting there.
Years ago I would sit back and take things as they came. People would tell me what to do, and I would do it. I would let people take advantage of me, say things to disturb me emotionally and not show anger, avoid confrontation, and didn't ask for what I wanted.
I was thinking about the last few years and how moving to New York has helped me change. They say that New York people are hard.. and maybe they are. But, I am thankful that I have had my time here. Living here has given me confidence and strength.
I remember when I moved here alone in April 2004, only knowing my good friend Christine. I was scared and excited all at the same time. That was where I had my first change. I remember going to my interview for my job and thinking that I was just going to go in there and be a new person. I wasn't going to be demure and submissive. I was going to go in there and be the stronger person that I wanted to be. And, I did. I went in there and said things I would never say. I took the reigns.
From that point on, I began to start doing things for myself more and started to expect more things from others. Some didn't like this because my expectations for them had changed and they had to give more to me to be in my life - and when I say give more, I mean time and emotion not money. This created significant life changes for me but I am thankful now to be where I am and who I am.
I know that it will continue to be a journey for me to keep changing into who I want to be and learning about life along the way. But, there is something to be said about living in the moment and being satisfied.
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